Change always comes bearing gifts. ~Price Pritchett
i’ve been wanting to write for such a long time, to say THANK YOU to so many of you who offer amazing support to me and this photography adventure. and also…to just…write. i’ve got lots spinning in my little brain, and so much is going on in the kosa house, lots of different things on different levels. but at the end of the day, all of these things seem to have one thing in common this season: CHANGE.
and OH, how i despise change. seriously. i think it’s because we move enough, have enough change in our lives that isn’t our own doing that i just want things to stay the same. even the furniture. i’m pretty much thinking that’s why God gave me ty. he likes to change things up and roll with the punches. me? i’d just like my world to be predictable. is that so much to ask? :)
and now it’s april already! what in the world?? i meant to write a ‘merry christmas’ or ‘happy new year’s’ note here on the blog. but sooner than i liked these had passed, along with valentine’s day and right through march…
{enter spring break with easter.}

this past week the kosa clan of ours went on the most amazing vacation. all without cell phones. now, in your house, this may not mean a whole lot, but in mine, where ty carries his government blackberry and i’ve got my phone tied to business, add to that two teenage girls, it was HUGE. and…we were ALL in. we all lived in the moment with each other. it was just so amazing. and if there’s one thing that vacation reminded me of this year, it was to enjoy the moment. right now. it’s not coming back. and i know i say this all the time, even as a photographer, but i sometimes just forget. life gets busy, starts rolling along and i’m doing everything in my power just to hold my head above water…and another month passes by and i’m not even really sure where it went. oh, don’t worry. i could tell you what i did and where i was if i just refer to my calendar. but i want more than that; i want to be able to say i paused. drank in the moment. remembered those silly things, the fun things, beautiful things, even the hard things. because they’re what make me…me.
and i needed this sweet, gentle reminder. to pause in the busy times, too. because the next 4 months in this house will involve LOTS of change. and, although i’ve come to recognize that change can be very good, it can also be very bittersweet.
so…some changes for us…
1. we will move off post at the end of the month, and, although we’re excited and it’s not too far away, we know it will just be different. eeekkkk!! we know it’s the right move, just having to move ourselves will be an…adventure. {that’s the spirit!} ty should {key word: should} retire from this army life in a couple of years, so it’s in expectation of that event that we are making some transitional changes ahead of time. after all, as we’ve told our kiddos, we can’t live on post forever. they WILL insist we leave. {really??} change…
2. aubrey will graduate high school and be off to college in the fall. and this mama ~ from time to time ~ is overwhelmed with the thought of how much i will miss the dailyness of having her live at home…
3. noel will finish junior high and start high school. i can hardly wait to see what she delves into as she continues to spread her wings wide open…
4. and little man tyler will finish the 5th grade, officially being a middle school boy. i’m sure he will smell more, grow 3 feet in a year, and require more ER trips than i’d like, but i am so looking forward to every moment…
and so…in this season of change, it’s really been laid on my heart to be intentional. actually, it’s a word that really has resonated with me since the fall, but i think i’m only just now putting it together that it needs to apply to my life on a much more personal level. not only do i not want to miss these moments, i want to remember them. picking up my camera more for this family, writing out those things for which i’m incredibly thankful, speaking truth and life…
so today {in the middle of april, no less!} be encouraged. jesus is so, so good to give us TODAY. pause and breathe. look around.
don’t miss it…





…be intentional…